I really hope your Christmas atmosphere is not as gloomy as mine. I am surprised that my first Christmas blog post is to tell about my gloomy day-and it might just end up uplifting someone or even uplifting myself.
Coming from a person, who tries her best for things not to worry her and try to be happy come what may, it is shocking that she s accepting that she has had the worst Christmas ever.
So, the gloomy atmosphere started from Christmas eve when I was anticipating that I would finally be admitted into the Nigerian Law School and stop this hide-and-seek movement, I’ve been doing to attend classes, and it did not happen (definitely story for another day-probably when i get called to bar).
Tears has been the order of the day from Christmas eve to Christmas day and maybe partially today, Boxing day, but I plan to take myself out for a good laugh, maybe with a movie or something.
If you follow me on Instagram, my Christmas day post (Click here), talked about protecting your joy; to be honest that has been me for the past 5 years of my life, no matter what happens, I must be happy, as that is my nature, I try not to worry about things, but this year, this got to me, I could not even smile, and get what? I started transferring aggression to everybody around me, I just really wanted to be in bed and no distractions, let me wail and cry my eyes out. It was bad that if nobody called or texted me to say Merry Christmas, I wasn’t planning to do same.
I tried to have the Christmas Spirit so bad, I tried watching Christmas movies but I ended up more irritated. Did I hear you say pray? I’ve done that but I don’t know for some reason it is not working. Then I go back to my Instagram post, and my phone gallery to see pictures where I was genuinely laughing and happy and I smiled, and I told God, that at the end of this tears, I want to laugh so hard that everyone would think I am mad, and I will tell them I am mad because You (God) have caused me to laugh so hard that I am about to forget this Christmas that is not so ‘Christmassy’.
So, apart from taking myself out to the cinemas today, I would just listen to my Gospel playlist, cry (this time tears of victory) and ‘Let Go and Let God’ (as that is my mantra for 2018, so why not let Him do His thing.)
So funny, that as I began to write this blog post, the heaviness in my heart reduced. No doubt, I cried at the beginning when I started writing this article and now, I am smiling and my spirit is uplifted concluding it. This could be all I might have needed, LOL.
So, for everyone who has a gloomy Christmas like me, please try to look back at when thing wet as planned and also look forward that at the end ‘it all ends in laughter’, and just begin to Thank God in advance.
With this, I’ll Leave you with these Scriptures;
For I know the thoughts, that I have towards you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil. to give you an expected end.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, in prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God, And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your heats and mind in Christ Jesus.
Being confident of this, that He who has begun the good works in me will carry it into completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Till next time,
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